"Oh god, what is she saying NOW."

First of all: Sorry for not posting a lot recently. I've been working pretty hard on the new novel and worldbuilding for that, doing Rocky Horror shadowcast stuff, trying to find a job, and keeping up with my drabble-a-day thing. I should start posting those next week, since I'll have enough of a buffer in case I miss a few days.

Anyways.

I am ... exhausted. I overgave my emotional labor, because I was really concerned about a friend. Seems a lot of people are having awful days today, and even though I'm not reaching out to try and take care of myself, I can -feel- my energy draining at the speed of light.

I hate hyperempathy.

I just want to curl up and take the day off, but I have a few things to do, and my boyfriend is around and god I need time with him right now. I just need a little love. I need some soft words and some soft actions. I wish we weren't long distance, but ... hey, we get to see each other in July. Beyond excited.

I'm just so tired today. But I feel bad for being tired/whiny, because I have it a hell of a lot better than what other people are going through right now.

Nothing really special here -- I just really love Scandroid, and I'm super-grateful for the System Shock kickstarter that introduced me to Celldweller in general. Synthwave is 200% my jam, and I'm so glad Scandroid was a gateway.

I'm liking the newer songs (Onyx, The End of Time, etc.) more than anything else; the vibe is just ... so. Freaking. GOOD. Or I might just really like his voice and how it sounds in those songs in particular.

I really need to listen to more of Circle of Dust now that I have more energy. Industrial music is so much fun. (Hive Mind is my fave, mostly because it reminds me of The Many from System Shock 2, to be fully honest. I just connect Celldweller and his projects to System Shock now. Same with Blue Stahli.)

Music /confetti
Okay back to designing my OCs now.